Tough Love

Have you guys seen that meme that’s been on Facebook lately? The one where it says something about this past week feeling like a year? Well, welcome to my life: COVID-19 social distancing, chemotherapy treatments and potty training.

At my last treatment day my white blood cells (part of my body’s immune system) dropped by more than 50%, which means my odds of fighting off any virus, infection or disease is greatly decreased. Perfect timing considering the situation with COVID-19. Not! No one, especially me, likes being the first person to react and leave work because of a snowstorm or in this case, COVID-19. Thankfully, I have friends and family that reminded me that my health is a priority right now and I should do whatever I need to do to protect myself. #toughlove

What does protecting myself mean? It means Tyler and I have had numerous conversations about what is best for our family. It means I’m doing as much as I can from home to help out at work. It means I’m staying hydrated and taking vitamins by the handfuls. It means I’m taking advantage of the COVID-19 deal from Crested River to keep up on my CBD/CBG tinctures. It means I pulled my kids out of daycare. It means I haven’t gone anywhere other than my chemotherapy treatments. It means my kids haven’t seen their friends. It means lots of time at home waiting.

All of these recent changes had me and my family searching for answers. What if I get COVID-19? How long is this going to last? What is the best thing we can do for our family? Is there something we don’t know?

As if we weren’t already under enough stress we thought it would be a good distraction to start potty training our little firecracker. Rowyn, is 23 months old and she showed all the signs of being ready to be potty trained. She would instantly tell me she needed to be changed, heck she would even bring me the diaper. She has gone on the potty a few times after expressing her need to go and has shown interest in others going to the bathroom.

Day One: It was a disaster. We went through 6 pairs of underwear and 6 pairs of pants. Rowyn would tell me she had to go potty, but refused to go. As soon as I left her off the potty, she would pause, look at me and say, “wet!” Yup, she just peed her pants right after I took her off the potty.

Who the heck said potty training girls was easier than boys?

Did I cry? Did I throw a temper tantrum? Did I have a glass of wine before 5 p.m.? Yes, yes I did. #toughlove

Day Two: Progress. Instead of going through 6 pairs of underwear and 6 pairs of pants, we only went through 2. That’s right, which means she used her potty chair more than she wet her pants! Did she fight me tooth and nail? Yes, yes she did. She told me when she had to go potty, but she yelled at me the whole time I made her sit. It was brutal.

Day Three: Progress. Ms. Rowyn only had one accident! We still went through 2 pairs of pants, but that’s because the sun was shining and we were all overdue for some fresh air and natural Vitamin D.

Day Four: I’m hoping and praying that things continue to get easier each day and soon Tyler and I can pop a bottle of bubbly to celebrate that we are officially done potty training!

Sonja Teclai once said, “Stress has the tendency to blind you from your blessings.” She was right. With everything going on this past weekend, I didn’t write in my journal- 5 things I’m grateful for and 10 dreams I made happen. This break in my usual routine probably explains why I feel like I’ve been on an emotional roller coaster.

Come to think of it, it also explains Samuel and his recent behavior. Mommy and Daddy have been doing a lot of talking about something that can make us really sick, mommy has done a lot of crying and he hasn’t seen any of his friends. My poor, sensitive little man is lacking routine. Thankfully, the bulk of the hard work required to potty train is done. Now we can get into a routine. I need the routine just as much as he does.

What’s my take-away here? Well, it’s to remember that even in times of stress we should still keep to our routine- practice gratitude, exercise, drink the stupid water, take the vitamins, do whatever it is that brings you joy and to stop dwelling on what you cannot control. Let Go and Let God, or to quote my husband, “it is, what it is,” my friend. Time to put on the big girl pants and tackle that shit. If it’s important to you, you will find the time. #toughlove

Today I am grateful for…

  1. Extra time with my family
  2. Sunshine
  3. Puddles
  4. Chemotherapy treatments (even thought I don’t want to go)
  5. Perseverance
  6. Perspective
  7. Tough Love
  8. FaceTime
  9. Dance parties
  10. Vitamins

What are you grateful for?

These are some of the dreams I made happen today:

  1. I am cancer free
  2. I am an exceptional wife, mother and friend
  3. I am a healthy and fit person

What about you, what dreams did you make happen today?

Sending you love, hugs and a friendly reminder to wash your hands,


One thought on “Tough Love

  1. Thanks for your positive positive vibes! You are a blessing and have helped others through this in so many ways! Thank you and love ya!❤️

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